路是人走出来的!可是当在也没有勇气或动力让你想走下去要怎么办?我自己问很久了!我的路还很长!可是我已经不知道要怎么走下去!也没有勇气和任何理由能支持下去!我真的撑得很累很累!我很想说出来我的累!可是不想被别人看到我的懦弱!想保留一点点的尊严!是只剩下那么一点看不见无价的薄弱的
微小尊严!我真的很没用对吧!没用到面对事实的勇气都没有!所谓的哭过就好了!其实也是要欺骗自己吧了不是吗!哭了事情还在它不会因为你哭了!同情你自动消息的!是你很害怕面对现实吧了!说真的我很在意别人的眼光!真的很在意!我不想在被看不起!因为我输不起!我不喜欢那种感觉!因为我希望渴望得到爱戴!我只是个没用又没有人爱的小孩!之所以会想要有更好的成就!就是不希望在被人看不起!我希望我会是这个家的骄傲!可是我做不到!可笑吧!我希望的是我妈在和朋友谈天时会很以我为傲!不在给人看不起!我却放弃了这机会!人生不可以replay吗!我只是想让你有面子吧了!你都在给我一次机会!我知道了!我只是这个家的失败者!如果有来世我不想在做你们的亲人了!最好是陌生人!这一世把全部债还完给你们!不要欠了!下一世就不要有任何牵涉!我只想要一个爱我的家!这一世在累我也会撑下去!因为是我欠的我会还!就算这一生就这样过!很没用每次写这些都会哭!
Sunday, August 22, 2010
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
this is me
I've always been the kind of girl
That hid my face
So afraid to tell the world
What I've got to say
But I have this dream
Right inside of me
I'm gonna let it show, it's time
To let you know
To let you know
This is real, this is me
I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be, now
Gonna let the light, shine on me
Now I've found, who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me
Do you know what it's like
To feel so in the dark
To dream about a life
Where you're the shining star
Even though it seems
Like it's too far away
I have to believe in myself
It's the only way
This is real, This is me
I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be, now
Gonna let the light, shine on me
Now I've found, who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me
You're the voice I hear inside my head
The reason that I'm singing
I need to find you, I gotta find you
You're the missing piece I need
The song inside of me
I need to find you, I gotta find you
This is real, this is me
I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be, now
Gonna let the light, shine on me
Now I've found, who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me
You're the missing piece I need
The song inside of me (this is me)
You're the voice I hear inside my head
The reason that I'm singing
Now I've found, who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me
That hid my face
So afraid to tell the world
What I've got to say
But I have this dream
Right inside of me
I'm gonna let it show, it's time
To let you know
To let you know
This is real, this is me
I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be, now
Gonna let the light, shine on me
Now I've found, who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me
Do you know what it's like
To feel so in the dark
To dream about a life
Where you're the shining star
Even though it seems
Like it's too far away
I have to believe in myself
It's the only way
This is real, This is me
I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be, now
Gonna let the light, shine on me
Now I've found, who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me
You're the voice I hear inside my head
The reason that I'm singing
I need to find you, I gotta find you
You're the missing piece I need
The song inside of me
I need to find you, I gotta find you
This is real, this is me
I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be, now
Gonna let the light, shine on me
Now I've found, who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me
You're the missing piece I need
The song inside of me (this is me)
You're the voice I hear inside my head
The reason that I'm singing
Now I've found, who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me
Sunday, August 8, 2010
不快乐!!!
说真的我不在快乐了!当我被判心理上的死刑时!它就不在活了!不管我用了什么方法!就算能把它回复!它也在不是它了!它的伤痕还是深深烙印在那里!就算我笑的多开心!都只是表面吧了!很虚伪很假!它告诉我它不会在快乐!不会心痛!因为已经没有感觉了!当它从天上掉到地狱时!它碎了!是粉碎了!一丝不留碎了!它从前所建立的坚强被磨平了!现在的它一碰就碎!在也经不起考验了!好脆弱!好无能!可是我知道它真的经历了很多!也伤了很多!它很棒了!可以回复就算不快乐也好!它的不幸都是我带给它的!可是我的不幸也不是我想要的!它告诉我它在也经不起被伤害!被背叛!就算现在过的不是它想要的!我不要求它回复到以前一样!因为不可能!我只希望它能快乐!
废人!!
对啊!我是最没用的那一个!是你们最讨厌的那个!是你们从来就不关心!我可能只是要引起注意!是你们给不到我想要的!是你们永远把我放在最后!永远我都是当牺牲品!有没有关心过我要的是什么!不管以前还是现在我都是被指责的那个!更不管是不是我错!我都要被迫承认都是我的错!那对我来说是公平!我从不要求多只希望公平对待!可是我都是那个付出最多获得最少的那个!我真是个笨蛋!无可就要的笨蛋!谁都不喜欢我!我为了讨好拼命的往上爬到头来也只是一场空!还是一样回到原点!这世界上除了我自己其他人都是虚伪的!为了他们的利益才讨好我吧!我看清楚了!不管是家人朋友都是一样!是我太天真!一次又一次的被伤害!不管是有意无意他们都在伤害我!我做了这些多!还是得不到爱!是我傻是我天真!我早就该面对现实了!不管我在努力也没用!我努力的去相信这个家!我却一次又一次被背叛!被打枪!你们认为真心是应该被你们这样丢在地上踩吗!
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