spm coming and the sad thing at this year 2008

left 5 days is spm...
spm coming...
now i want become crazy...
because so many thing at this year also bad..
this year i so bad lucky...
bad lucky...the phone my father buy for me whe my birthday lost..
the phone is so mean for me....
when it lost i so angry the ppl who take it...
at the few day i became like crazy ppl..
not tooking...my face became so black...
every ppl scare me....
when i think about my phone i will cry...
then now i use my our money buy the new phone...
that day lost it...
i until crazy...
but lucky i get it back if not i will kill the ppl wjo take it...
i also will kill myself...
i hoping this year good lucky is coming...
because this bad lucky hv with me so long...
it give me so many bad thing happien
util now all go leh...
but now it come again...
but not like that day...
so pool...at that time not ppl like me...
my family...my friends...nd so many thing
the feel is so bad...
every 9 i cry because of this...
you know the feeling i feel
not ppl can feel it..
and i hoping not ppl can feel it..
so many many thing..but i not tell ppl..
now i write a little at here...

HELP ME

SPM Coming...
so stress...
help help help...
trobleum many
probelum many...
every thing so bad...
救命
HELP ME

100分的笨蛋！

我真的是个100分的笨蛋！
我既然相信他对我是...
他们是不是都一样的，
为什么他们要这样对我？
我玩不起！
我真的玩不起！！！
我很辛苦，
辛苦到无法呼吸！
我真的错了！
错的很离谱！
不可原谅！
不可原谅我自己！
为什们我要相信他会是和他们不一样，
为什么要相信他说的，
为什们我会变成这样，
为什么我要相信他！
相信他！！！
伤害了我自己，
我这样做值得吗？
我问我自己？
我真的不知道！
我要怎样办？
我问我自己，
可是好像永远都没有答案！
我的心永远都不会有答案！
好空虚哦！
我在既然我自己的伤口上撒盐！
很痛很痛.....
痛到嘛了！
好像没有药可以医！
为什么你可以这样？
为什么你要这样对我？
为什么？
你可以告诉我吗？
我真的真的很想知道！
没用答案真的很痛苦哦！
为什么我不公平的事都发生在我身上？
我什么这样不公平？